Time.

They say time can heal everything, but what about space? Space allows me to think. Put myself in everybody's shoes. I get a bird's eye view of this situation when your presence isn't strangling me.

It gives me power, to have a million different views than the one I had when it was just you and me. A view that says you and I aren't perfect, we both have flaws. But in order to make it work we both need to sacrifice.

Is it really worth my time and energy and soul to work this out? I always thought it was, but I knew it was too much to handle for you.

So I let it go and it hurt. So bad, for so long. But time did really heal me. Because now, I don't need you. Neither do I need anyone else. My close circle is enough to make me happy and there aren't any sacrifices here.

I let "us" go, and felt so liberated. I reinvented myself, my thinking. Now all I am is that person who talks to anyone who is feeling what I went through with you. I just wish they can make peace with their past and remember them as only happy memories.

Pure, pristine and only mine, the memory of loving you will always always be my favorite kind.

Stuck.

Being stuck is the worst feeling ever.

Thoughts running through your head, plans being made, fairy tales being imagined, all to be rained over by people you live with.

My nani would tell me stories of Lord Krishna when I was a kid. I loved him so much because he would do whatever he wanted; whether there were consequences or not. Why did we never see lady role models like Lord Krishna?

I'll tell you why : because, they were sitting at home, helping with household chores. Churning butter, filling matkas of water, cooking, taking care of what the family needs and sitting in a corner for those 5 days a month, like an untouchable.

Why do all princesses need a prince? Why do all damsels need a hero? Why should some one else open doors for you? Why can't you be your own hero? Why do you need a man to go on a trip with?

Mom: you do whatever you want, go wherever you want, after you get married.

Me: but mom, can you go wherever you want? Does papa take you where you'd really love to go?

Mom: *no answer*

Why do we have to wait? Just to be disappointed? Just feel lonely in a house around your in-laws?

Better be alone than stuck... Right?

You are a strong girl.
A strong independent woman, who can go out and eat alone at restaurants, and actually enjoy the food and your own company instead of thinking about what other people around you are thinking.

Maybe the waiter pities you, or that couple on the adjoining table make fun of you. Maybe that group of girls think that you are weird. May be you really are, but you are so much more than that.

You are unique. You love spending time with yourself, eating alone is actually therapy for you.

You think that the waiter is really kind and helpful, the couple is so in love as they laugh together, that group of girls is having so much fun amongst themselves.

Being alone doesn't necessarily mean that you are sad. It means that you find positivity being lost in your own thoughts, the happy memories of your past, the silly thing that your neighbor's dog did this morning, that name that your grandma called you with last night 'cause she couldn't remember your real

name, or just that pun you thought of when you overheard a conversation in the lift.

Being on your own is so peaceful because you can concentrate on your own thoughts, without having to debate with someone whose opinion doesn't matter. You think of making better use of "your" time. Like colour schemes, new flavor combinations, or just penning down your thoughts so your friends can read it and know that being alone is really not that bad at all 🙂

Japanese Gardens: Where I finally found peace.

Hello to the world!

Soooooooooo....It has been a crazy year and a half since I wrote something on my blog! I mean so many things have happened that I've lost track!

But, here I am, finally and I promise this post is worth your time.

Just a few pointers before I start:

I (moved) am living in Singapore currently, but only until my course ends. So I joined Pastry school (just like I had dreamed) and we were bound apprentice to restaurants/hotels from our school for a year. But my course is a year and a half long. Do the math, so for now I am jobless and in the process of finding ways to make good use of my free time. 

The thing is, I have changed from a couch potato to a person who cannot sit in one place all day. 

As and when I feel like it, I just leave the house to go shopping, window shopping, random places where I have never been like the toy museum or the pretty gardens that Singapore has.

Yesterday was yet another day, where I had nothing to do. That's when I decided to take my camera for a walk. Poor thing had been put away in a dark place. She was feeling lonely and thought she had lost the purpose of her life (no I'm not talking about myself) :P

The Japanese Garden is located in Jurong next to The Chinese Garden (which I didn't know until I got there)

The nearest MRT is Chinese Gardens. But, I got there by bus because I enjoy the scenic beauty that bus rides offer. You know, the whole looking out of the window part and getting lost in your thoughts which is impossible to do in MRTs that run through tunnels.

I have to say when I first entered, I was really disappointed. This is what I saw.

And this is all I cud see until I walked for a few more minutes.

 

  

Then I also saw these pretty pink flowers that made me smile :)

 As I walked further, I came upon a lake and all I could think of was making it my backyard!
Then I noticed the house in the background and I'm so jealous of the person who got that idea before me! I would do anything to have a house somewhere like this. A place that smells like sweet sweet fauna, a pond in front of my house, a garden on the back where I can grow my own veggies. Sigh..When will I become Rich enough to have such a life...

Something that got me more inclined toward the lake was this bridge. Can't you picture a couple on the boat, some man rowing the boat while singing romantic songs. (Me and my hopelessly romantic brain. We should get a room already)

 Finally, I walked further and realised that the way to the gardens was across this bridge!

The three flowering stages of the pretty pink flower that looks like rose as a bud. I'm extremely sorry that I don't have the names of most of the flowers. They should really work on this!!

Just about to blossom Champaka!

Love the marbled effect on thelake!

 I sure am a fan of all things tiny :) Aren't the white mini cuties lovely?

Another miniature temple like thing!

Before and After.

 

Is it just me or even you think that the Chinese roofs were inspired from this flower?

 

That's Confucius. The philosophy of Confucius emphasized personal and governmental morality, correctness of social relationships, justice and sincerity. Very inspiring man indeed!


I hope you've enjoyed the post. I had a great time over at the gardens yesterday. Come back for more!
Keep smiling :)

Honk honk zoom

I was just browsing through my old sketchbook and i found this poem that i had written on my way to college. I think i wrote it last year when i used to travel with my father.
One of the disadvantages of travelling in Mumbai is the amount of traffic. It can take hours to reach your destination. Especially during monsoon!
So here goes the poem. Hope you enjoy it.

Peace, quiet, fresh air,
Honk honk zoom,
Home is the only place that lets me breathe normally.
Honk honk zoom,
On my way to college,
Form one signal to the other,
In a crowded place, with hardly any people around.
One person in a car i see;
Is it really necessary?
Carpooling; i think is the way.
Simple maths:
1 person/ car = 1000 cars
4 people/ car = 250 cars
Wont the traffic go down?
At a time, less number of cars would be used in the town.
Three hours to reach the Arabian Sea,
From Mumbai to Mumbai,
Are you kidding me?!
Solutions at hand no one wants to follow,
Suggestions that don't make sense are given though.

Honk honk zooom,
From Thane to Mumbai.

Honk honk zoooom,
Vehicles go through,
Slowly,
Tyres rotate once, BRAKE.
Rotate again, brake.
Spends more time steady than
Rolling on beautiful roads,
Windows down,
Hair flying,
Come outta the dream!
If you open the window,
You'll fall sick!
There is a gas chamber on the Chembur bridge.
The sun shines one minute,
The next minute it rains.
Doesn't wash away dirt, but your mood.
Gloomy weather, now sunny,
Cloud covers, now dark.
Doesn't make sense to me,
Neither would it, to you.
From the start of this poem, until now, I've crossed only 2 meters.
On the Chembur bridge,
Outside is a gas chamber.
I used to go outdoors to get fresh air.
Now i wait to reach home to get some.

Some people

Some people is a post dedicated to some people who have managed to make a place in my mind, good or bad, pretty or ugly, either of these or all of the above. Trust me, some people have the ability to be the best and worst part of your lives and nobody except you are responsible for it.


Come to think of it, we ourselves give such people the opportunity to break or mend our hearts. We give them the power to play with our mind, body and soul. With this done, we don't realise how wrong our decisions were and how much all those things could affect us once these people leave with short or no notice.


I've had beautiful friends, always. Their number may be few but i know exactly who i can count on and who will stab me in the chest and leave me to die all by myself. When unpleasant events happen, we understand how everyone deals with disasters in their own ways, either by saving themselves or by bringing in people they love to a safe place.


Those cowards who run for their lives first, without even trying to save someone else, even when its possible, will find this situation coming back to them in one way or another in the form of sweet sweet KARMA. Its the one thing that i can guarantee. If someone has knowingly done something wrong to you, the same thing will get back to them in this lifetime itself! Whether you get to watch it or not depends on your luck. But be happy and be sure of such a thing happening.


So don't think about those people who have caused harm or have hurt you in ways you think cant be healed. Your mental wounds will heal if you let them heal. Be happy and be with people who are with you right now.


Because, after every sunset, is a sunrise waiting to radiate happiness and warmth in your life!

Give all your love and respect to people who deserve it.


Until next time, stay happy and live like a boss :)

Summer so far!

Hello everyone!

Let me start with a li'l something about the year 2012. I had thought this year would be a pain like 2011, but to my surprise, this year has treated me very well. Although there have been many ups and downs, for one, i finished college. Awaiting my results, but i already miss all my friends (Its not even been a month for God's sake!). Moving on, (not really :'( )

I went for a superb trip to Murud, with all my sanki friends! 

Murud is located near Alibaug, it is much calmer and the place where we stayed was almost people-less ;) As you can see in the photos, there were not more than 20 people on the beach at a given time. Flashback! Sigh...

Can you believe how clear the water was? Neither can I :')

 
A beach in your backyard! Sounds more than perfect to me!

Made these chocolate chip cookies for the trip :)

So, this holiday at Murud was followed by another one in Lonavala. Thanks to my parent's 30th anniversary, we had another reason to celebrate :D

We stayed at Fariya's for 3 days and play, eat and sleep was all we did!

The most beautiful Lonavala cliche, if you ask me, is watching the sunset.

Always beautiful!

I'm a huge fan of nail stuff! And I'm talking crazy!

I do crazy stuff with my nails...This is a twist on the classic "French Manicure". None of my friends told me how ugly it looked (I have a bunch of sweet friends). I managed to pull this off for 20 days :D

I happen to love all this, but I'm sure i wont repeat this style ever again!

What is summer without food?! Tried my hands on some French bread :D The picture on the right is home-made mango ice-cream, the perfect thing to shoo away this heat :)

Funny things that i do with my bestie :D

Made these cup cakes for mommy since it was Mother's day yesterday. 12 of my cup cakes met with an accident *SOB* hence the short form for "Happy Mother's Day"

Moma loved them so i think i'm making it a yearly ritual (<3)

This monstrosity of wall painting was done two days ago!

It took me an entire day to finish this piece, and it was completely worth the effort:D

This is a whimsical representation of my dream; To be the cup cake Goddess and to own a tiny cat :)

Also, I love the moon, so it had to be there!!

(Notice Ele shying away from the camera :P)

My summer so far has been very eventful and i hope it continues to be that way :D

How has summer 2012 treated you?

Leave a comment to let me know.

:)

Happy 2012 :D