Time.

They say time can heal everything, but what about space? Space allows me to think. Put myself in everybody's shoes. I get a bird's eye view of this situation when your presence isn't strangling me.

It gives me power, to have a million different views than the one I had when it was just you and me. A view that says you and I aren't perfect, we both have flaws. But in order to make it work we both need to sacrifice.

Is it really worth my time and energy and soul to work this out? I always thought it was, but I knew it was too much to handle for you.

So I let it go and it hurt. So bad, for so long. But time did really heal me. Because now, I don't need you. Neither do I need anyone else. My close circle is enough to make me happy and there aren't any sacrifices here.

I let "us" go, and felt so liberated. I reinvented myself, my thinking. Now all I am is that person who talks to anyone who is feeling what I went through with you. I just wish they can make peace with their past and remember them as only happy memories.

Pure, pristine and only mine, the memory of loving you will always always be my favorite kind.

Stuck.

Being stuck is the worst feeling ever.

Thoughts running through your head, plans being made, fairy tales being imagined, all to be rained over by people you live with.

My nani would tell me stories of Lord Krishna when I was a kid. I loved him so much because he would do whatever he wanted; whether there were consequences or not. Why did we never see lady role models like Lord Krishna?

I'll tell you why : because, they were sitting at home, helping with household chores. Churning butter, filling matkas of water, cooking, taking care of what the family needs and sitting in a corner for those 5 days a month, like an untouchable.

Why do all princesses need a prince? Why do all damsels need a hero? Why should some one else open doors for you? Why can't you be your own hero? Why do you need a man to go on a trip with?

Mom: you do whatever you want, go wherever you want, after you get married.

Me: but mom, can you go wherever you want? Does papa take you where you'd really love to go?

Mom: *no answer*

Why do we have to wait? Just to be disappointed? Just feel lonely in a house around your in-laws?

Better be alone than stuck... Right?

You are a strong girl.
A strong independent woman, who can go out and eat alone at restaurants, and actually enjoy the food and your own company instead of thinking about what other people around you are thinking.

Maybe the waiter pities you, or that couple on the adjoining table make fun of you. Maybe that group of girls think that you are weird. May be you really are, but you are so much more than that.

You are unique. You love spending time with yourself, eating alone is actually therapy for you.

You think that the waiter is really kind and helpful, the couple is so in love as they laugh together, that group of girls is having so much fun amongst themselves.

Being alone doesn't necessarily mean that you are sad. It means that you find positivity being lost in your own thoughts, the happy memories of your past, the silly thing that your neighbor's dog did this morning, that name that your grandma called you with last night 'cause she couldn't remember your real

name, or just that pun you thought of when you overheard a conversation in the lift.

Being on your own is so peaceful because you can concentrate on your own thoughts, without having to debate with someone whose opinion doesn't matter. You think of making better use of "your" time. Like colour schemes, new flavor combinations, or just penning down your thoughts so your friends can read it and know that being alone is really not that bad at all 🙂